Happiness and Imperfection

Just when..

Friday, December 16, 2005

Life, bwesit paminsan-minsan. Just when you think everything is going the right way, things to swerve a lil bit and hurt you. Lies are unfold. People you think you can trust betray you. How nice huh...

I won't elaborate, pisses the hell outa me.. The thing that makes me angry is that I ASKED. I don't care if it's part of your past. I don't care how ugly it was. I don't care if it's full of shit, cause if I love you, I would and I should and I will eat your past and start a fresh present with you. If you can't trust me enough about your past that you have to deny it from me..or you want me to see a picture that really isn't it, well hey buddy.. something is wrong with you. I DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY!! I DONT CARE HOW YOU THINK. YOU HURT MY FEELINGS. YOU BETRAYED ME. YOU LIED TO ME. YOU DENIED STUFF FROM ME. DO YOU THINK YOU DESERVE ME AND MY TRUST?

I love you with all my heart, but I need you to tell me the truth. I need you to tell me everything. You shouldn't hide anything from me if you love me. Cause if you love me, you wouldn't wanna hurt me. Lying to me makes things worse, not better. Do you just want me to love the superficial you? Cause if so, I don't really love the person in you, I only love the drawing you created for me to see.. I love you.. but you give me reasons to doubt.. What in the world are you thinking!?

posted by Jesa at 6:45 PM

FACTS:
A is for - Age: 18
B is for - Boyfriend: Leo Andrew Maceren
C is for - Came to the World: Jan. 24, 1987
D is for - Dad's name: Lito
E is for - Essential item: Money!
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Collide by Howie Day
G is for - Girls you've kissed: Mom, Bling², and friends
H is for - Hometown: Bohol
I is for - Instrument: Piano
J is for - Job title: SVN
K is for - Kids: Someday...
L is for - Living with: Parents and Brother
M is for - Mom's name: Helen
N is for - Number of boys you've kissed: Expound more. lol
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: NEVER! *thank God*
P is for - Phobia[s]: SNAKES...
Q is for - Quotes you like: Taken from The Notebook
Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do. That's what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I'll be seeing you. R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: 1st BF. approximately 2 yrs and 8 months
S is for - Sucks: To go to clinicals.
T is for - Time you wake up: Depends what time school starts
U is for - Unique trait: Hmm, tell me..
V is for - Vegetable you love: Squash
W is for - Worst habit: I bite my nails
X is for - X-rays you've had: NONE.
Y is for - Yummy food you make: ADOBO..=)
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

PASTS

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. ...

Eventually

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