Happiness and Imperfection

Long Time Ago..

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

said:

Hi guys.. I know it's been a long time since I last posted here.. I've been really really busy with school and other crappy stuff to deal with. So before anything else, I would like all of you to know that I'm okay. :) I've been really happy the last few weeks. The reason why I weep is the same reason that I grin.

Life is just that funny sometimes..Pero siguro dapat ko lang aminin sa sarili ko na pag nagmahal ka, kasama na doon yung sakit..hindi lang puro saya.

Sige..sige..kc unfair naman sa ibang wala talagang alam.. OKAY HERE IT GOES..

You know that Leo and I broke up naman noong April diba..

Yeah siya yan..noong time na wala na kami..syempre di kami nagusap.. natural lang naman siguro yon.. Doon dumating sa picture KO si JP.

Ayon..naghang kami..nagdate oo na.. Pero things didn't turn our right. So when I stopped talking to him.. Leo came back in the picture..but this time.. he started hanging out with a girl named Princess..

Eh di ayon.. Leo started to like her..And she did too..But at the same time they were hanging out..Leo and I started things over..we started as friends and became what we always were.. Sweet to each other..lets each other know we care.. So yeah.. Lets say..things escalated into a path between friendship and bf-gf. At the same time, Princess thought Leo wants to pursue her..

So things got complicated. I started getting mad at him for hanging out with her.. And I got jealous of her too.. Well, Leo always reassured me that things are okay.. That all he wants from her is friendship now.. Yeah, he admitted.. HE liked her at first but he says he wants me to be his gf..OR at least he'll choose me over her. Yes, that made me happy.. So he finally introduced me to her.. Hoping that I'll stop getting mad. So he did..

Yes, I was so nice to her.. so nice that it hurt me too.. Cause I know I wanted LEO all by myself. I wanted her to know that..but Leo's doing it step by step.. So yeah..a week passed Leo was always with me.. LEO chose to be with me.. But he has to end what he started with her.. She doesn't know that I know.. but in ways, I don't want her to get hurt.. I don't want her to feel like I betrayed her or something.. But yeah.. things are complicated but it's easy.. Leo does his part.. and so should I.. it's just hard.. But yeah..

I have to learn to accept that she's part of the past..even tho it conflicted with my present.. anyways, here some crazy stuff me and Leo took last Saturday..

Pretty stupid and funny.. But I'm happy he's choosing to be with me.. I'm happy he's making an effort now..and I'm happy I'm going to term 3.. 6 more months and school will be over.. =P that's why I've been busy..

posted by Jesa at 1:34 PM

FACTS:
A is for - Age: 18
B is for - Boyfriend: Leo Andrew Maceren
C is for - Came to the World: Jan. 24, 1987
D is for - Dad's name: Lito
E is for - Essential item: Money!
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Collide by Howie Day
G is for - Girls you've kissed: Mom, Bling², and friends
H is for - Hometown: Bohol
I is for - Instrument: Piano
J is for - Job title: SVN
K is for - Kids: Someday...
L is for - Living with: Parents and Brother
M is for - Mom's name: Helen
N is for - Number of boys you've kissed: Expound more. lol
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: NEVER! *thank God*
P is for - Phobia[s]: SNAKES...
Q is for - Quotes you like: Taken from The Notebook
Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do. That's what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I'll be seeing you. R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: 1st BF. approximately 2 yrs and 8 months
S is for - Sucks: To go to clinicals.
T is for - Time you wake up: Depends what time school starts
U is for - Unique trait: Hmm, tell me..
V is for - Vegetable you love: Squash
W is for - Worst habit: I bite my nails
X is for - X-rays you've had: NONE.
Y is for - Yummy food you make: ADOBO..=)
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

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