Happiness and Imperfection

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Today, I read something.. I don't know if I had to interpret things for myself.. I dunno if me feeling bad is a right thing to feel..or at least reasonable.. I dunno if I'm only dragging myself in a situation where at the end I'll feel like an idiot.

Well it sucks when someone you cared about the most does not feel the same thing for you.. Well it didn't say that way but that's the impact to me.. I FEEL SO MAD AND SAD AND FUCKED UP.. I feel like crap.. I don't know.. THIS DOESNT MAKE SENSE.. I KNOW! but if you don't wanna read it...go ahead..LEAVE!

I've been finding stuff to hurt myself..I AM THE ONE PLACING MYSELF IN THIS KIND OF SITUATION.. somebody..kill me.. OH GOSHY.. I feel soooooooo stupid for doing this to myself.. argh! I don't even know why I'm doing it.. DARN IT!

Well, regrets however.. I know he felt with me.. he would rather be there than here.. that sucks! :( SUCKS SOO BAD!!!!!

posted by Jesa at 4:07 PM

FACTS:
A is for - Age: 18
B is for - Boyfriend: Leo Andrew Maceren
C is for - Came to the World: Jan. 24, 1987
D is for - Dad's name: Lito
E is for - Essential item: Money!
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Collide by Howie Day
G is for - Girls you've kissed: Mom, Bling², and friends
H is for - Hometown: Bohol
I is for - Instrument: Piano
J is for - Job title: SVN
K is for - Kids: Someday...
L is for - Living with: Parents and Brother
M is for - Mom's name: Helen
N is for - Number of boys you've kissed: Expound more. lol
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: NEVER! *thank God*
P is for - Phobia[s]: SNAKES...
Q is for - Quotes you like: Taken from The Notebook
Allie: I need to ask you something.
Noah: What is it sweetheart?
Allie: Do you think that our love can create miracles?
Noah: Yes I do. That's what brings you back to me each time.
Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Noah: I think our love can do anything we want it to.
Allie: I love you.
Noah: I love you Allie.
Allie: Good night.
Noah: Good night. I'll be seeing you. R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: 1st BF. approximately 2 yrs and 8 months
S is for - Sucks: To go to clinicals.
T is for - Time you wake up: Depends what time school starts
U is for - Unique trait: Hmm, tell me..
V is for - Vegetable you love: Squash
W is for - Worst habit: I bite my nails
X is for - X-rays you've had: NONE.
Y is for - Yummy food you make: ADOBO..=)
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

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